Balance

Good morning family. Looking forward to a good Sunday, all day. Thankful for God allowing me/us to wake up this morning. So very thankful for His grace and favor. Lord knows I don't feel like I deserve any of it but He keeps on blessing me even when I'm not at my best. We walk through life taking what we have for granted, spending our time moaning and complaining, forgetting how He's kept us over the years. My granddaughter Samyah Iris Matthews was born a premie. She was the size of my husband's hand. A tiny life born to to live a "huge" life. Today is her 8th birthday. God is good. Truly a blessing. My daughter often reminds me that I'm nicer at work than I am at home. I agree with her. My work life is balanced/a controlled environment. No one sits at my desk or bothers my things. If someone needs something from me they ask before taking. When I need help/assistance completing work I need only ask and someone is there. So it goes without saying that I feel more relaxed at work because my days are pretty predictable, rules/guidelines are in place. Now, I don't feel that it's right to have a "work" personality and "home" personality". I feel that I should be balanced enough that my family sees a "stress" free me, the "me" my co-workers see. As a women, we like to be the martyrs, the one who falls on the sword of "cleaning/cooking/care-taking". Our intentions are good because it's what we're supposed to do. But what I realize about me is that being a martyr, taking on this responsibility is draining. It keeps me from being the best me at home. Because we work together, my daughter gets to see the "work-life" me and I'm happy about that, glad she's seen a different "momma". This morning I pray for me as I pray for you. Father God, I pray for that we all learn to let go no matter where we are. I pray for the women and men running households, praying they find structure and organization. Lord teach us to ask for what we want/need, keeping us humble based on Your word. Lord we have to be better at asking for help as opposed to demanding. Lord teach us to share how we feel as opposed to lashing out when we feel no one is listening. In Jesus' Precious Name, AMEN. TeamBalance. Bblessedloveyou