Circle of Strength

Good afternoon family. I've let the morning get by me but I've been productive. Our tree is up and lit. My grands helped especially Charm Marie aka "ChaCha". Thanksgiving day was busy and the blessing of having full "bellies" was received and greatly appreciated. I'm very thankful for all God has provided because Lord knows things could have been so different. Yesterday as we gathered to say grace before dinner my daughter made the statement that it was the smallest group of people we've had in a long time. Even though everyone didn't eat with us there was still about 15 total. That's a nice size group. What she said sparked a conversation about "small groups". We all chimed in, made our comments, but what I was reminded of is, it isn't the size of your group, it's the quality. As we move into the new year, each of us should take a look at the quality of our friendships/relationships. How good are they? Are they working for us or against us. Why do we hold on to certain people and why do we let certain ones go. At the same time we should really think about our growth. Is our "circle" filling a need, a purpose? Or is our "circle" made up of people who don't want to rock the boat so they don't contribute at all. I don't know about you but I want people in my life who can teach me something "good", things I need to learn/change, things I need to reach for, things that will "rock my boat" but add value. 2013 has been a good year for my family. We've changed and matured but I/we still have work to do. I truly believe that God is strengthening my network, strengthening my family/friends so that I/we make the right choices and live according to how His word says I/we should. Our network of people have to be people of high standards, people on the move, people doing things better/different/more efficiently. I challenge you as I challenge myself, pray for those who have been placed in "your circle" and pray for those who will enter in. Lastly, have the faith that Daniel had when you're making decisions, understanding that God's way is the only way. There are are lots of lions/tigers/bears waiting on your faith to slip, waiting to devour you. TeamCircleOfStrength. Bblessedloveyou

Rest Required

Good morning family and Happy Thanksgiving. We've been planning and getting ready for this day for the last few weeks, can't believe it's finally here. So many things to be thankful for but the main thing is I'm thankful for my life and yours. Yesterday I left work with the goal of starting my cooking last night, at least getting the baking out of the way. When I got home, I know longer had the desire or energy to start. I looked around the kitchen and decided it wasn't going to happen. Sometimes we have to allow our plans to change and not do things just because others are expecting it. Most women I know stress about getting things done on time or having the resources to do the things they want or need to do. What I've found is, that if I make up my mind about something I shouldn't feel guilty about it. If I'm unable to meet a deadline or complete a task, I should accept it and regroup. There are days that all we need is a good nap or a good night sleep in order to move forward. We become cranky and irritable when we don't allow our bodies and minds to rest. So guess what I did instead of cooking last night, I went to bed. I am better for it and my dinner is almost done. So shout out to all my women friends who stayed up late last night or got up early this morning. I'm sure our dinners will be great and I'm thankful that God has provided. Lastly, I'm so thankful for my hometown, Vernon TX. I learned so many lessons there and one of the best things I experienced was good cooking. Remembering the flavors and smells as we visited different homes during the holidays is what keeps me cooking. Never forgetting the smell of home. TeamRestRequired. Bblessedloveyou (For Ms Ro, Proverbs 21:10 and 27:15-16)

You're Grown

Good morning family. Worked from home yesterday. Enjoyed the peace and quiet and the fact that I didn't have to be out in the rain. Praying for peace and that everyone have a glorious Thanksgiving feast. If you're like me, you have internal struggles. You know those times when you're really not operating in faith, when your heart is somewhere else, when that stubborn side of you kicks in, when you want to shout people down. My internal struggles, all of them. My internal struggles come with lack of obedience and I know I'm not alone because I interact with a lot of people who know what the word of God says. Don't get me wrong, I'm not judging, I'm just saying. To repair internal struggles and to become more obedient, we first have to confess, own our shortcomings and realize that change is needed. One of the greatest struggles I had was learning to forgive my mother for "her" life choices. Learning to forgive her for something she didn't know she needed forgiving for. I had to confess to her that I often wondered what life would have been like had my father lived instead of her. Once I shared this with her and my reasons why, our relationship was better. I felt a release and I think she did to. I also felt convicted because I'd held her accountable for my "adult" transition. Like she was responsible for all my bad decisions. After our conversation I realized that all the things I had been mad about were nothing in comparison to all the "good" things she represented in my life. My mom was a strong-willed beautiful woman. She had a spirit that shined brighter than anyone I ever met. She commanded attention and wasn't afraid to speak her mind. The most important memory is her love for God. I share this to remind all the adults in my life that no-one is responsible for your happiness but you. I understand that childhood trauma/drama is real but I also understand that what we're exposed to is meant to make us better/stronger/happier. Our exposure should not be used as an excuse to live like "hell" on earth. My heart spills over with love when I think about my mom, oh how I wish she were still here. As the holidays approach begin to release, begin to confess and most of all begin to walk in thankful praise for everything, the good, the bad, the ugly and the beautiful. Thankful for a merciful God who has kept me. TeamYou'reGrown. Bblessedloveyou.

Thankful

Good morning family. Yesterday morning I received messages from someone who was very upset. I had a choice, I could respond emotionally or I could keep it moving, keep it real. I chose to keep it real. When I say "keep it real", I mean I focused on the love I have for that person and not what they were saying. This person wasn't upset with me but didn't like the way things were going based on prior and current interactions with others. Sometimes we get so busy proving and defending that we forget how to love, we forget to forgive and let go. Our emotionally charged responses have us boiling, saying things that in five years won't even matter. This morning I pray for anyone who's tied to an emotional issue from their past/present. I ask God, our Lord and Savior to touch the hearts and minds of those who for some reason can't let go of a hurt, that hurt that stays in their front pocket locked in their heart. I ask our Heavenly Father to open our minds to healing and shows us how to communicate the way we're feeling based on His ways, His words. I ask Him to lead us away from words that divide and cause pain, give us words that help us move forward, help us rebuild relationships we've thrown away. I ask God to take those fingers we point at one another and direct them towards ourselves because at the end of the day, we have to own what we feel no matter how someone else made us feel. I ask our Lord to grant us the courage to love "anyway" even when the people we are charged with loving may not deserve it. I fall to my knees in thanks to our God for keeping everyone in my life safe for there are so many families who aren't planning Thanksgiving dinners because their focus has to be on planning funerals for their loved ones, setting court dates, planning visits to a jail or hospital or making no plans at all. Father God we are blessed beyond measure and we ask Your forgiveness because we forget what and where you've brought us from and too. With all my heart I ask You to watch over my family, my friends, my co-workers and the people of our nation, thanking You again for allowing us another chance, another day/year to break bread with each other and to bask in the glory of Your generosity/blessings. In Jesus "Sweet" Name, AMEN. TeamThankful Bblessedloveyou

Telling Stories

Good morning family. Praying for my family and friends in OK and TX, the hawk is out along with sleet and icy roads. The cold weather continues this morning. Thanking God that it didn't feel like 41 degrees. It's actually not that bad. I dosed the kids up last night because they played in the cold all day. Our kids aren't as tough as we used be. For some reason I don't remember us having colds and coughs like they do. Maybe it's because we played outside more as opposed to sitting in front of the TV playing games. Exercise is one of the keys to raising healthy kids. IJS. This morning I give all honor and praise to God for all He allows and shows. The more we learn about ourselves based on His word, the better we become. What I've learned is that I/we can't allow my/our circumstances to discourage me/us or others. Speaking positive affirmations is a must. I'm so grateful that I've been able to understand that negative things happen in my life to make me stronger, to build me up. I'm more aware of seasonal transitions so I don't allow frustration to take over. Change is a must and welcomed in my life. What we all must learn is that every second of our lives holds a story that someone needs to hear. Whether the story is funny, whether a story is a lesson or whether it's a release, we have to continue telling telling/sharing them. When we don't tell/share our stories we miss the opportunity to help others. I can't tell you how many times my spirit has been lifted by hearing someone else tell me their story or share an experience. As we inch closer to the New Year, I pray we all continue sharing our lives. I feel that every day is new journey for my family and friends, a journey worth sharing and documenting, a journey full of stories that will influence the "me" God wants to see. Praying for us all. TeamTellingStories. Bblessedloveyou. (reading for today, Daniel 1:1-21, 2:1-20, 1Peter 3:8-22, 4:1-5, Psalm 119:65-80, Proverbs 28:14)

Explore the Talent

Good morning family. What a beautiful Saturday. This is one of those days that you not only appreciate life but you appreciate living in Florida. One of the best weather days this year. I've been sitting listening to kids cycle through their piano lessons and it really makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something even though I'm not taking the lessons. Exposing our children to "life" outside of our normal life is very important. I know we can't guarantee them success when they become adults but we can point them in the right direction. Guiding and directing them starts at home. If you have an opportunity to speak to and encourage children, don't miss it. It's so easy to just wait around for children to grow up and move on, but that's not the right thing to do. While we have their ear, while we have the chance to influence them we should be supportive, affording them the opportunity to explore theirinterest. My three boys always played baseball. I can remember standing in the middle of the park at Rondette trying to watch Courtney play in the dirt and three baseball diamonds at one time. They played so much ball that they became disinterested and simply decided to quit. What I failed to do is ask them what they wanted to do, what their interest were. I didn't try to uncover any other talents because my husband and I felt sports was it, they were boys, right? Courtney always had the gift of gab and writing, but I had no idea my boys possessed that same gift. I can't make up for what I failed to recognize in them but I can help my grandchildren find their niche, that thing they love, that thing that makes them smile. I can and I will. TeamExploreTheTalent. Bblessedloveyou

Mature & Patient

Good morning family. Everyone have a great Friday, enjoy the day. Feeling thankful and refueled this morning. Safe travels to those going to the Classic this week. Praying that our family and friends "play" responsibly. Sometimes we loose patience when we don't receive the answer or response we're looking for. Some get angry, some judge, some shut down and some argue. What I understand is that until the person responding and the person asking are on the same page, there won't be an agreement. We have to work towards "agreement". What works for me may not work for others. The things I do for others may not be the things another person is willing to do. What others give may seem minimal to what you bring to the table but it depends on who's doing the measuring. It's also important to understand how mature a person is. Have they had enough life experience, have they been exposed to life events that help shape a "mature" thought life? As we move through our days, we should think about our responses/our request/our suggestions. We are all unique and constantly learning/growing/changing so have patience when you're on the brink of loosing control based on interactions with others. TeamMature&Patient Bblessedloveyou.

Rebuilding Finances

Good morning family. Thursday are always busy. Is it me or does everybody feel all their meetings are on Thursday? Anyway, just happy to be living a productive life full of family and friends. I know that sounds cliche' but it's so true. Some of us have taken the long way through life, missing out on joy and happiness because we've allowed ourselves to be consumed with human responsibility that was never meant to be ours. Yesterday I had two different conversations about the same-thing, finances. When I think about how I ran through money, not using it the way God intended, I cringe. It took years for me to understand that money wasn't going to make me a better person, it wasn't going to fix all my problems and certainly wasn't the answer to true happiness. I used to envy people who I felt were better off than me. You know the friends that were able to buy whatever they wanted. What I wasn't getting  is that I had no idea how they were able to shop like they wanted, were they using credit cards, were they functioning on borrowed money? Why did their finances seem to be flowing so freely? Sometimes standing on the outside of a person's life leads us to wrong conclusions, makes us feel inadequate because we think they have the secret to success based on what they've accumulated. What we have to do is find out for ourselves how to reach financial freedom. The first step is to evaluate our spending habits, our giving habits and overall needs/wants. Are we giving God our first, I know I haven't been, are we spending when we should be saving, I am,  are our closets so full that we can't squeeze another thing in them? What's over-loading us? It's time to break those financial bad habits. Stop accepted what we're used to and start implementing biblical/practical habits. Face it, we ain't getting no younger. TeamRebuildingFinances. Bblessedloveyou

Seeking Peace

Good morning family. I feel like my week should be farther along than it is. Thinking about "elevation". You know, getting to a higher level in life. Not necessarily more pay but more peace. Don't get me wrong, more pay is a good thing, but the more I understand about living a peaceful life, the more peace I want. Every morning on the way to work I come down Main St. There are always men and women sitting on the sidewalk, most of them waiting for a "day" job. I assume some of them are homeless. I use to feel sorry for them and want to pull over and give them the few dollars I had in my purse. Convicted because I've never given them anything unless I had to stop there and gas up. Usually one of them will approach and ask for change. This morning I almost envied them because they look peaceful. They're not running off to a stressful job, may not be worried about feeding anyone but themselves, don't look to concerned about the weather and certainly aren't hiding who they really are. I think for the most part they've decided to stop living based on "human" expectations and started living carefree, putting the stresses of life to bed. I'm not saying I want to live the life of a homeless person, I'm very thankful for everything God has allowed my family to accumulate and sustain. But I am saying that if more of us would live life based on God's word and not the word of the "world" then we would be at peace. We would stress less about what we don't have and praise Him for what we do have. Using our resources more responsibly/spiritually. We would understand that every relationship is not made to last and that "when one door closes, another door opens". We would see/share the true beauty and lessons in failure and success. Our walk through life would no longer be "self centered" but lives focused on the betterment of those less fortunate. That's how we start the search for peace. Starting my walk today. TeamSeekingPeace. Bblessedloveyou

Celebrate Because

Good morning family. Traveling grace for my husband this morning as he gets on the road for work. Also, thinking about Sug on his new job in LA. May God watch over all. I'm very thankful for a new day, for the sunrise. As Thanksgiving and Christmas inch closer some of us will start to feel a little anxiety. Wondering what the holidays will bring. Some wishing their money was a little longer, some wishing they had a "special" someone to spend time with and some just wanting to get to the new year. What I've found is, if we focus on the true meaning of the holidays, we understand that it's not about what we're able to buy, not about having someone around to share your life and it's not about "just" getting through. We accept where we are and vow to move forward, be better, do better. I'm looking forward to spending time with my family and friends, not expecting anything but peace and love. Remembering that God's blessings have been poured over us time and time again. Focusing on the true gift and celebration, Jesus Christ. There's not a Thanksgiving feast that can fill us like His love for us can and celebrating His birth is the best present any of us could give or receive. I pray that we all understand that it's not about our purchases, not about our parties and certainly not about what we expect to receive, it's truly about life, living it to the fullest based on God's will and purpose for each of us. TeamCelebrateBecause. Bblessedloveyou.

Inspire to Inspire

Good morning family. A beautiful day here in Jax. Praying for all those affected by the recent storms in the States and abroad. These reminders of living life to the fullest keep hitting us in the face but some of us keep ignoring them. Happy Birthday to half-of-my best friend team, Teri Kirkland. A support system I can depend on, she is always willing and ready to give of herself. Sets the bar pretty high for me. Love her to life. Yesterday I attended a coach's workshop. Everytime I'm around this group I come away inspired and closer to the change I want for my life. I was reminded that "the gifts" (Ms Gigi) we seek are already in us. We just have to accept and "walk in" what God has given and prepared for us. In order to move forward in life, we have to leave the "yes" men behind. I want people in my life who are growing, exploring and living authentically. I'm so over the phony, fake people, the ones who laugh with you and probably at you when you're not looking. I want people in my life who have succeeded and are on their way to even greater success. Does it make sense for us to continue working hard, receiving the same return or does it make sense that we work hard and our return be mind blowing, unbelievable. I want the mind-blowing, unbelievable return, but I have to work hard, work smarter, use my opportunities wisely. The workshop yesterday reminded me that the automatic doors of life won't open until I move forward (Ms Gigi). A huge shout out to J. Dianne Tribble and Ms Gigi for the wisdom they shared yesterday. TeamInspireToInspire. Bblessedloveyou. (some of my friends will receive this twice, don't fuss at me)

Feeling Some Kinda Way

Good morning family. Just thinking about all the things women are charged with doing and how the women in my life keep things moving and flowing. It's not that I don't think about the men in my life and their responsibilities, but women are tied to emotions that sometimes keep them off balance. What I realized about me and I hope you realize the same, the deeper understanding I have of what my true role in life is, the less foolishness I'm willing to put up with. Listening to a pastor yesterday made me take a deeper look at where I want to be and who I want to be in the lives of others. I also thought about my "self portrait" and "my inner portrait". Is it the picture that I enjoy looking at, the one I want the world to see? Am I really changing/growing or am I subcontiously pretending to grow? I ask that because sometimes we fall into habits that make us think we've changed but in reality, we're the same person, doing those same underlying things that stunt our progress. Running from uncomfortable conversations and not confronting those issues that consistently make us doubt ourselves. The person who puts on makeup to cover up scares and imperfections. I want my change to be natural, no cover ups, just natural. I want my change to be real, effective and powerful. I want people to see me and believe my change, but I have to believe it first. What I'm certain of is that I will never go back to living without the word of God. No matter what changes in my life, His word won't. No matter who He brings into my life, His word wont't change. Thanking Him and praising Him for showing up whenever I need Him and for giving me the courage to take responsibility for actions and reactions. I'm really in a place of gratefullness and gratitude. So very thankful that God gives each of a voice that we will/can/should use to deliver truthful and uplifting words. Asking our Father in Heaven to continue guiding every one of us as we walk the sometimes uncertain road of change. Amen to all He brings. TeamFeelingSomeKindaWay. Bblessedloveyou.

Protect and Love

Good morning family. I pray everyone is having a nice Saturday morning. I'm having coffee without having to referee any fights or arguments. Looking forward to piano lessons later this morning (grandkids, not me). I was asked a question that really caught me off guard, "would I lie to protect someone who'd committed a crime?" My answer without hesitation, no. Will I stand by a person's side? Yes, but I will never lie to keep someone from going to jail if they are guilty. What everyone knows is that mistakes are made, some are within our control and some are not, but whatever the mistake is, we have to own it and not run from it. I'd be lying if I said I haven't done anything that could have sent me to jail, but God saw fit to give me a second chance, let me slide, He saw my future when I didn't realize I had one. Some people think lying for another is a form of loyalty, respect and love. What they miss is that if a person loves you they won't put you in a position to have to lie. When you love people, you protect them by living a clean life, by making the right "life" choices, by serving God. I have to be honest and say I haven't always protected my family through my actions and choices. I've lived selfishly and didn't really think about "impact and outcome". This morning I pray for you as I pray for me, Father God, continue guiding us through our daily journeys, opening our eyes to those things that cloud our view/vision of what You would have us do and how You would have us live. God I/we thank You for confirmation and peace. Your ways are so powerful and I am so grateful for change and opportunity. Lord, without You, we are nothing but pawns in the "earthly" games others play nut under Your protection we flourish/prosper and live. Lord I/we are so thankful for Your presence and the fullness of Your word. Let every man/woman and child understand and open their hearts to what You've prepared for them, leaving old habits behind, removing vulgar language, drinking/drugs, arrogance and the love for material things behind. Loving this life You've giving us, in the Name of Jesus, AMEN. TeamProtect&Love. Bblessedloveyou

Work Life In Full Effect

Good morning family. Wow and welcome to Friday. I'm excited, ready to get this party started. It's been an interesting week, productive and eye opening. Yesterday I remembered that there are people that I love and respect so much that I don't want to let them down. I know our goal is to not let ourselves down but when people have a positive affect on your life, you always want to make them feel proud to know you. This is something that comes from childhood, the thing that our parents instilled in us. I can hear my grandma saying "don't go up there on "them" people's job showing out, you go up there and appreciate the opportunity you've been given". I've fallen short a few times on my job but I've bounced back, I've been disrespectful but I've asked forgiveness, I've been unappreciative but reality hit and I realized how fortunate I am. Not wanting to sound preachy this morning but being employed means a lot to me. Having a job means my family has food on the table, having a job means that I have something to look forward to, having a job allows me to grow, having a job gives me confidence, having a job provides me with options. God is so very awesome. When you start feeling like you're working for nothing, look at where He's brought You from, look at what He's given you and most importantly, how are You treating what He has allowed you to gain. Sometimes we are to touchy feely about our growth opportunities, missing the opportunity to embrace the new, let go of the old. I, for one, will not miss out on anymore opportunities just for the sake of being "comfortable". TeamWorkLifeInFullAffect. Bblessedloveyou.

Finding Purpose

Good morning family. Thankful for clear skies this morning. It's cold but we have a beautiful sunrise. Sitting in my "window" seat at work enjoying the view. Praying that everyone makes it to their destinations safely. My heart is full this morning. So very thankful for the strength God gives each of us. He has given each of us a purpose. Some of us are walking in ours while others are still trying to figure it out. There are some who know what their purpose is but feel they aren't strong enough or educated enough to step up to the challenge. I'm reminded that when a purpose is revealed, God has a plan. We need only pray, asking for direction and clear vision. When we walk in the will of God, putting in the necessary work, we get to where we need to be. Some of us "chicken" out because we can't "muscle" up the courage to face what has to be done. We're to afraid of hearing no, to afraid of rejection, to afraid that we won't meet with the approval of our peers, but when we truly turn it over to God, nothing else matters but what He has approved/affirmed. This morning I pray that we each face our true "purpose" in life, stop standing on the outside waiting for someone to give and approve what we want. I love the song "What God Has For Me, It Is For Me", it says man can't take it, love, love, love it. I also remember a song from my childhood that played on Saturday mornings, it basically reminded us that to get something, you have to really want it, just let go of fear and fly high. TeamFindingPurpose. Bblessedloveyou

Standing On His Word

Good morning family. My Jax family is "chilly" today. 47 degrees but not bad. The way the wind was blowing I thought it feel colder but it was okay. I'm juiced up on skittles and peanuts, gotta do better. Happy birthday to my 10th grandbaby Chase DeJuan Matthews, he turned 1 today and got his first hair cut. Time is passing fast people, make the best of it. I woke up from a dream this morning that made me think about how I present myself to my family and friends. As I stumbled around getting dressed for work I realized my dream was reminding me to be open and transparent. Understanding that sometimes when we're exposed it's important that others see that even in times of trouble we're still strong/confident, walking in peace. There are people who see us when we're down, but instead of being uplifting they take advantage of the vulnerable state we're in. Attempting to belittle the way we're feeling, trying to leave us feeling unworthy. But our Father in Heaven has blessed us/those who walk through storms looking for the bright side. Those of us who are determined to get our lives back on track no matter what others say or do. So if/when you're feeling stripped down don't let what others say keep you from getting back up. We're built to withstand whatever comes when/because we stand on His word. TeamStandingOnHisWord. Bblessedloveyou.

Daddy & Momma

Good morning family. Loving this weather. Long sleeves and a light jacket. Not to cold, not to hot. Praising God with every step this morning and every morning. Refusing to take anything for granted. Loving the skin He blessed me with. My son posted a comment about watching the kids on the rides at the fair. His comment was around the fact that the he was now the parent watching his children on the rides. There is something so amazing about growth, physical and mental. As we watch our children get bigger and taller we sometimes forget to stretch their mental growth by praising them and affirming them on a daily basis, ensuring they feel loved by God and us. The busyness of life distracts us and makes us forget that our children are God's blessings to us, our rewards and part of our purpose for living. Now that my children are grown and have children of their own, I see the opportunities I missed by not being fully present/engaged in their every day lives. I believe Dee and I gave them a strong foundation but I can't help but believe it would have been even stronger had I known the meaning of "true parenting". So this morning I applaud my children for being "all in" when it comes to their children. They explore and recognize the talents their children posses and they make sure no one goes without. I feel beyond blessed to know that they love my grandchildren unconditionally, I see it and I love it. Thanking God for the blessing of parenthood. TeamDaddy&Momma. Bblessedloveyou.

Work Hard

Good morning family. Happy Veteran's Day to all those who serve and support the citizens of our country. Servicemen make huge sacrifices and fight wars they don't necessarily believe in. The love for their/our country moves them to protect us/it. It takes heart to leave your family, leave the protected soil of the US so others can experience the freedom most of us take for granted. So good morning Vets and thank you for all you do and have done. Saturday I was reminded that it takes more than words to succeed in life. You have to put in work, more work than your peers, more work than your family and work that you may not want to do. As American's we're raised to ask "what's in it for me?". What I've found is when that question is asked the person asking it is really not seeking success. They're wanting to be rewarded, not realizing that a reward is a temporary fix. When we get past asking "what's in it for me?" and start doing positive/helpful things, whether a reward is included or not, then we're on our way to success. I personally feel that giving of yourself without asking for something in return is the best reward EVER. It's a freeing feeling, one that tells others who you are and what you're about. The greatest example of this is Jesus. He knew the cost but He accepted what had to be done so we could live, so that we could choose. He loved us that much. In essence, He knew the answer to "what's in it for me?". This morning I pray that we all understand our purpose, I pray we've all established goals, I pray that when we're asked to do a little more that we eagerly accept and work with grumbling, I pray that we put the needs of others first and that the desires of our heart be based on what God desires for and of us. TeamWorkHard. Bblessedloveyou.

Get It Together

 

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From: matt1894@live.com
To: matt1894@live.com
Subject: Get It Together
Date: Sun, 10 Nov 2013 09:56:45 -0500

Good morning family. I hope everyone is enjoying their Sunday morning. Praying for Alva and her family, Mr. Al's mother passed away this week. Also saying a special prayer for Sug and his family as they travel to their new home. Missing them already. Kids are out of school tomorrow, hope all you parents and grandparents are ready. Really not sure how I'm feeling this morning. Do you ever wake up unsure of what you want to do but knowing you should be doing something? That's where I am this morning, just unsure. I had a busy work week and for the past couple of weekends, I've been on the go. Really want to be lazy but who has time for that? I'm caught up in the thought of not wanting to appear ungrateful for all God provides. See, this week also brought bad news and bad weather for others. Sure, I don't know or didn't know those affected but nevertheless their bad news reminds me of how precious life really is. I've lost a child but not two and I've been in storms but made it through. It seems our world is getting worse but is it? I think the media is playing more and more to our insecurities and fears. Thing is, it's up to us to pick up on what's happening, be better people and change those things that aren't pleasing to God (the signs and reminders are all there). I don't know about you, but I fall short more than I care to admit. I let my guard down, participating in conversations that I know aren't right. Also letting/allowing my patience to wear thin when I should sit still, listen and open my heart. This morning I pray for the families who lost loved ones, especially those two young sisters and I pray for those in the Philippines. We should not walk in fear or be insecure about our lives but we must get it together. TeamGetItTogether. Bblessedloveyou

I'm Not Mad Anymore

Good Morning family. Welcome to this glorious Friday and I do mean glorious. Revelation and conviction this morning but nevertheless excited to start this work day and get to the weekend. Praying for our friends/co-workers in the Philippines. These storms ain't no joke. (remember when ain't wasn't a real word?). As I rode in this morning the narrator from my audio book said something that made me laugh. She told the story of how she and her husband were having a disagreement and she knew he was going to win the argument. In her mind she was plotting how long she would stay mad and planning how she would react to not winning. I laughed out loud because that's exactly how I behave. First let me say, I should be ashamed of myself for planning to be mad and next I'm ashamed because I control my emotions. There are so many times in life that we prepare to be angry, we go into meetings with our minds instead of our hearts. We rehearse how we're going to respond and we decide that our feelings will be made known, we will be heard, we will not put up with foolishness? I can honestly tell you that I've folded my arms, I've set in silence, I've put on a somber/un-approving face and sat in rebellion based on the fact that I didn't like something or didn't get my way. Surely that's not the way God wants me/us to behave. There have been times that I've stayed mad at Dee so long that I forgot what I was mad about. I can honestly say that during those "mad" times I missed not being able to share my day with him, share my gossip and good news. As we prepare for the weekend, I pray that each of us learn and practice responding in love, understanding that no-one benefits when "anger" is the center of attention. Loving life and all of you. TeamI'mNotMadAnymore. Bblessedloveyou.

My Pitcher Is Full

Good morning family. Feeling grateful this morning. I've come to the conclusion that the McDonalds on Merrill Road has the best coffee. All Mickey D's are not the same, bummer. This morning my mind is raising, my heart is full. Ladies our lives are like big "ole" water pitchers. We allow to many people to pour their feelings into our "pitcher" not fully realizing we're already over flowing with feelings of our own. But, that's how we're designed, how we're built. It's up to us to pour out some of those things that make us unhappy, keep us unbalanced. We have the power to do so. Our lives should be over flowing with love and joy not hate and misery. I thank God that all the women I'm close to understand how to rid themselves of things/people who aren't pouring love and peace into their lives. I'm reminded and thankful that God's word provides us a means and way to handle everything that's thrown at us. I'm encouraged to get up and be a better me, better than I was yesterday, better than I was last week, better than I was last month and certainly better than I was last year. We get better with time and reflection. So ladies, whatever you do today, stop and give God praise and glory for a sound mind and "glowing" spirit. Thank Him for allowing you to separate the "real" from the foolishness. Stay in a place of "thanksgiving" so that you continue flowing in the blessings of God. Smile even when it hurts and give yourself a break. TeamMyPitcherIsFull. Bblessedloveyou.

Conversations

Good morning family. We are mid-week already. Wow, these mornings come fast, sometimes to fast but thankful for rest, a renewed spirit and a brand new start. I think I drank my coffee to fast because I need another one already. Anyway. "I'm So Glad Trouble Don't Last Always" is what's on my mind and heart this morning. We sometimes engage in arguments that lead to frustration and discontentment but when we understand that some arguments are meant to make us stronger, bring us closer then we begin to move forward. It's in those times that we walk in resentment that we stop progressing. Conversation is a huge part of my every day life. Because of this I've learned to watch what I say, how I say it and when. Being mindful of my audience is also important. The flip side of this is being able to listen and accept feedback. There are so many people who miss the opportunity to learn because of their inability to listen and fully engage in productive conversations. I'm glad that I have reminders every day that it's not always about how I feel or what I need, it's really about the needs of others. I also realize that it is not important to have the last word, the importance comes from the words we use/say. Sometimes you just have to "shut it up", keep calm and move on. TeamConversation. Bblessedloveyou.

Convicted/Forgiveness

Good morning family. A little misty here in Jax and the wind was really up. The truck was "rocking" a little when I drove over the Dames Point. Had to slow my roll. Thankful for a safe drive into work and bless God, I didn't pass any accidents. Yesterday I had the opportunity to receive feedback, correction if you will on something I said, something I did. I listened and I agreed with what was said. It wasn't the feedback that I would have liked but it did bring attention to an issue I'd already given thought to. What I realize is that everyone walks to the beat of a different drum and we all have different expectations. What I think is okay may not be okay for another but at the end of the day it's how we react to our differences that counts, that matters. The person who gave me feedback could have sat on it and let it build up, could have let it go, could have just decided that it wasn't worth the time to even have a discussion but because this person cared enough to speak up I received "words" that will benefit and guide me. There are times in our lives that we are careless with words, careless with our actions. When we face those times, we have to take a step back, ask for forgiveness and focus on moving forward. So this morning I ask God for forgiveness and anyone I may have offended. With an open heart I say, I'm sorry. In life we all find that it's easier to walk away and not accept responsibility for our words/actions. The hardest thing to do is face the music, own your words/actions and step into correction. TeamConvicted/Forgiveness. Bblessedloveyou.

Dream Big

Good morning family. Sunday morning, have I mentioned how much I love you, oh Sunday morning. This has to be the best day of the week, the Sabbath. Time for reflection and renewal. So many things on my mind this morning and I love it. What if I didn't have anything to do for the rest of my life? I'd be lost without a "cause". Dee and I are up preparing food for a "video party" Cory is having today. This "party" started as a question and turned into an event. What you have to know about my son, about my children is that when they set the hearts and minds on something, it usually happens. While they may have small doubts in the back of their minds, they don't let it hold them back. What I've learned from watching them is that they are determined to make things happen, they are not afraid to venture out of their comfort zone. Now, I have to be honest, sometimes it annoys me that they take risk, I get a little annoyed when they broadcast things that I think should be private, I get annoyed when I think they're speaking out of turn, but that's the parent in me. I'm sharing this to remind those "closed minded", "small dreaming", "lack of trust", "non progressing" people (me, myself and I) that anything is possible if you want it. Most of us have the resources at our fingers to reach goals, to make dreams happen and to obtain the so called "unobtainable". We have just grown so accustomed to accepting less that we can't see ourselves walking in victory. Lastly, I know life is challenging, life is sometimes interrupted by things that we can't control, life isn't perfect, and we are subject to failure but I also know that if we don't try, if we don't look past what's wrong to get to what's right, we'll live with regrets and "what ifs". As I return to the kitchen, my old kitchen, I say thank You to our Father in Heaven, Who's word reminds me that where I am in life is where I'm supposed to be at this very moment, The Best Is Yet To Come. TeamDreamBigWorkHard. Bblessedloveyou.

The Gift of Giving

Good morning family. Enjoying the sound of a rainy Saturday. It's peaceful and calming especially when you don't have to stress about getting out in it. Thankful for a full week of work, completion. I absolutely love the conversations I have at work and the ones I over hear. I'm not an eavesdropper, it's just loud on my job. Yesterday we had a huge food day. Anyone who knows me knows I'm about the food day. I like cooking and sharing food. What I know about feeding people is that it opens up conversation. I've always fed others because I believe food actually helps cultivate relationships, brings people together. This morning, listening to and responding to my grandchildren I realized that "we" are people who find it hard to share sometimes, especially when others haven't shared with us. It's a learned behavior that's very hard to break. "So you want to play with my toys but last week you wouldn't let me see yours" or "So you want some of my candy but the other day you wouldn't give me any of yours." What I know is that I want to live my life giving even if no one gives or shares with me. Giving is not a game it's a "gift", a way of life. I fully understand the blessing of being able to bless others. I'm fully aware that there are people who will take advantage of the sincerity and charitable spirit of others but I also know that God is our true provider and will not leave us without. So to anyone who doesn't give because they remember "when", let go and walk in the blessing you've received because tomorrow is not promised. You can't take any of these earthly things with you. Lastly, I don't know about you but I would rather be remembered as having a "giving spirit" than be remembered as someone who held on, held out based on "past" interactions. TeamTheGiftOfGiving. Bblessedloveyou.

No More Picking

Good morning family. Love Fridays. It represents the end of the work week and the beginning of rest and relaxation/fun and fellowship with friends and family. Good all the way around. Wishing my friend Shawn a happy belated birthday and Grandma Blanca a happy birthday today (Alexis' mom). I'm blessed to know them. During a conversation yesterday at work I was reminded of how often we look over the strength of others because we only see their flaws. I'm guilty. What I've come to understand and must continually practices is that we have to be uplifting even when we're being "tried" by what we see. I can't allow my views to overshadow basic reason when the actions of others don't meet "my" approval. In most instances "my approval" doesn't even matter because as humans, we do what we want, when we want and how we want. This is not to say that we shouldn't offer corrective critisim when needed. But we should take into consideration the maturity level, growth and life style of others as well as our own. I have personally gotten to caught up in what I think is right especially in my thoughts about my husband and my children. Although we're a family unit and strong one at that, we all have different opinions, dreams, needs and wants. It's taken me some time to really accept that my husband and children don't and won't always see things my way but I'm there (I know Dee is thanking God and so am I). So, as we begin our Friday work day and the start of our weekend, let us all be reminded that our focus should be on the strength of others and not "the picking apart" of their weaknesses/flaws. TeamNoMorePicking. Bblessedloveyou.