Feeling Some Kinda Way

Good morning family. Just thinking about all the things women are charged with doing and how the women in my life keep things moving and flowing. It's not that I don't think about the men in my life and their responsibilities, but women are tied to emotions that sometimes keep them off balance. What I realized about me and I hope you realize the same, the deeper understanding I have of what my true role in life is, the less foolishness I'm willing to put up with. Listening to a pastor yesterday made me take a deeper look at where I want to be and who I want to be in the lives of others. I also thought about my "self portrait" and "my inner portrait". Is it the picture that I enjoy looking at, the one I want the world to see? Am I really changing/growing or am I subcontiously pretending to grow? I ask that because sometimes we fall into habits that make us think we've changed but in reality, we're the same person, doing those same underlying things that stunt our progress. Running from uncomfortable conversations and not confronting those issues that consistently make us doubt ourselves. The person who puts on makeup to cover up scares and imperfections. I want my change to be natural, no cover ups, just natural. I want my change to be real, effective and powerful. I want people to see me and believe my change, but I have to believe it first. What I'm certain of is that I will never go back to living without the word of God. No matter what changes in my life, His word won't. No matter who He brings into my life, His word wont't change. Thanking Him and praising Him for showing up whenever I need Him and for giving me the courage to take responsibility for actions and reactions. I'm really in a place of gratefullness and gratitude. So very thankful that God gives each of a voice that we will/can/should use to deliver truthful and uplifting words. Asking our Father in Heaven to continue guiding every one of us as we walk the sometimes uncertain road of change. Amen to all He brings. TeamFeelingSomeKindaWay. Bblessedloveyou.